Running Dry

   Sometimes I feel dry. . .I'm sure most people feel like this. Yet there are times I feel like the only one going through things.
   Sometimes I want to give-up. . .I'm sure most people feel like this. Yet there are times when I wonder if anyone cares whether or not I do.
   Sometimes I feel worthless. . .I''m sure most people feel like this. Yet there are times when I can't think of anyone else other than myself feeling like this.

   These are the times when I am most thankful for God's promise in Lamentations3:22-23, "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness!" When I read verses like this it feels like God is talking directly to my heart and I believe that he is through the Holy Spirit.
   He tells me that He is living water, I will never run dry with Him.
   He tells me that He will be there when I am at my weakest, when I am at the end of my rope, His strength will hold me up.
   He tells me that I am wanted, that I am treasured and that I am His.

The world can tell me lies, my own heart can tell me lies. But I know the truth and the truth I know rests in Jesus Christ.

A New Day

This morning I was sitting in bed, just woke up and my heart was sour. The day before I was in a fog, spent most of the day in a bad mood and now it seemed like it was carrying into this new beautiful day. I got up, did some computer work and my daily chores. After coming back into the house I decided like it was a good time to just sit down and open God’s Word. Sitting on my bed I put on some of Kari Jobe’s songs in the background a softly opened my bible and journal. I began writing. . .

“ ‘Wish it could be easy. . .’
That is the start of Kari Jobe’s song Steady my Heart. Lord, just steady my heart. Impress upon my heart the words of your heart. Teach me, guide me, convict me and test me.”

   I then opened my Bible to Nahum and read through the whole book (3 chapters). Nahum is about God’s wrath on Nineveh. There were a couple verses that popped out to me.
    Nahum 1:3 – His way is in the whirlwind and the storm, the clouds are the dust of His feet.

    Nahum 1:7 – The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who rust Him.

    Nahum 2:13 (Said to the city of Nineveh) - ‘I am against you’ declares the Lord Almighty. ‘I will burn up your chariots in smoke, and the sword will devour your young lions. I will leave you no prey on earth. The voices of your messengers will no longer be heard.’

   After Nahum I opened my Bible to Psalms 90. The first two verses say this.
“Lord, you have been our dwelling place throughout all generations. Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the earth and world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.”

    My heart began to melt and break open, not in a bad way but as a sort of grieving. I have left my first love. I had ignored, neglected and sometimes rejected my One True Love. My Savior, my Maker, my God, my Lover. Now my heart was grieving for the times that are now lost, I can’t get those days back, the days I could’ve been diving into His Word, resting in His embrace and loving His kingdom. Just being alone with God for twenty minutes has altered my whole day. I can’t stop thinking of Him. He is in my every thought, my day began with Him and I am going to purpose to end it with Him. Tomorrow is a new day, no more ignoring and neglecting this amazing relationship, I am going to nurture it, cultivate it and watch it grow! It isn’t going to be easy but nothing supernatural is easy.

-julia <3